mortalcoil: (you make it hard to breathe)
Coil Lenn ([personal profile] mortalcoil) wrote in [community profile] accordancy2012-01-21 06:41 pm

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[he wakes up choking.

It's like he's picking up right where he left off. Panicking, clawing, fighting for air. There is no voice, but there is still sound for the book to catch. The kind of struggled breath that comes from barely fighting back sobs, air thick in the lungs, raw in his throat as he tries desperately to come to his senses.

He's just not used to this. Breathing. Feeling. Suddenly existing again. As bad as the nightmares have been, this is abruptly worse.]



((ooc: Coil's back! ...not that many people knew he was even gone, or anything. Robin is finding him in person, but if anyone says anything over the journal, he'll get back to them after he can find a pen))
birdsbirdsbirds: (BROW ♠ or we could not do that)

[personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds 2012-01-22 06:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[well, not much to do but fold the cloth inside-out and do it again.]

I don't know what happened, but... welcome back, I guess.

[he wants to ask him a million things, but... barely able to function on top of his normal silence? he can wait until the guy is well enough to hold a pen.]
birdsbirdsbirds: (♥ our lord and savior)

[personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds 2012-01-22 10:20 pm (UTC)(link)
[he notices the shift. his motions stop for a moment as he hesitates, trying to decide what to do. this is way outside of what he's used to.

but after a little huff of air, he shrugs and crawls over to Coil's other side, sitting up against the headboard right next to him.]


Hey, don't worry. We'll figure it out.

[he'll continue to pat at his face with the cloth a little here and there, occasionally checking to see if he's cooled down any. ...more out of want of something to do than him actually thinking it'll work.]

Relax for now, okay? I won't let anything bad happen to you.

[...how many times has he said that, lately? he immediately regrets the words leaving his mouth--what if he can't do anything? but it's not like he's not going to try...]
birdsbirdsbirds: (♦ forever is punishment enough)

[personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds 2012-01-23 07:10 am (UTC)(link)
[but the first time, he wasn't around for it. he feels... a lot of things. happy, guilty, a little scared. he's mostly following a raw instinct, an idea that he should do everything he can to keep this guy out of danger.

seeing him shrink away like that just worries him a little more. it pushes against his predetermined set of boundaries and, for some reason, he decides that it's a good idea to scoot over and draw this guy up into a sideways hug.

he really did miss him, in a sad... pathetic sort of way. he didn't think he'd see him again. it's... he doesn't really know how he feels about it, even if Coil was only really an acquaintance of his before.]


I mean it. You're not going anywhere.
birdsbirdsbirds: (♦ he just has a lot of feelings)

[personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds 2012-01-24 05:13 am (UTC)(link)
[he really has no idea whether it's helping or making things worse, but... the fingers at his sleeve solidify the idea that maybe he shouldn't move for a while. at least Coil isn't trying to claw him away this time.

so he stays there, very quiet and still. he'll let him collect or break down or whatever it is he needs to do.]
birdsbirdsbirds: (♦ general all purpose concern)

[personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds 2012-01-24 07:20 am (UTC)(link)
[and he still doesn't do much of anything. he doesn't mind, really. he didn't have it composed in his head that Coil was any less prone to emotions than--well, himself. he's just better at keeping things inside most of the time. so it isn't some big, horrible disappointment that dying, followed shortly by suddenly not being dead anymore is a hell of a lot for the kid to handle.

so he'll just stay there. shift enough to tug Coil's blanket up around him a little more, but otherwise just be something physical to lean on for a little while.]
birdsbirdsbirds: (♥ what is personal space anyway)

[personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds 2012-01-24 05:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[he lets him pull away when he does. with his head bowed like that, Robin picks up the wet cloth again, leaning in to wipe at Coil's face a little. it'll feel better.]

Hey, it's fine. [...probably doesn't help, but he wants to say something. he ends up pressing his lips to the other's temple in a very short kiss--something second-nature and nearly subconscious for him--before he mumbles something about fixing the cloth and stands up to go run it through cold water again.]
birdsbirdsbirds: (♠ nel put your pants back on)

[personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds 2012-01-25 04:23 am (UTC)(link)
[and he returns predictably, cold cloth in hand. if he's thinking about it, he doesn't show it so much--and the look catches him a little off-guard. he hesitates, then manages a small (but rather characteristic) frown.]

What's that look for? Don't worry.

[about what--well, he isn't going to say. he'll just move back to sitting at his side and doctoring him, occasionally feeling for any changes.]
birdsbirdsbirds: (♦ oral fixation joke goes here)

[personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds 2012-01-25 11:46 pm (UTC)(link)
What do you keep looking at?

[that comes a bit out of nowhere, out of a very lengthy silence. because oh, he notices. he just doesn't have any idea what it is that Coil has noticed. with this whole thing, who knows--maybe something is still hanging around him.

but he doesn't seem worried about it, or anything. he settles back down into a place next to Coil.]
birdsbirdsbirds: (♦ oral fixation joke goes here)

[personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds 2012-02-01 05:44 pm (UTC)(link)
All right... [at least he can trust that it's not immediately terrible. his gaze drifts to other things, like the wall and the ceiling, but he eventually slouches back against the headboard and nudges Coil's shoulder.]

Do you want to sleep?
birdsbirdsbirds: (♦ sleeps like a dead seal)

[personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds 2012-02-02 03:15 am (UTC)(link)
All right, all right. You don't have to.

[...if he doesn't want to sleep, Robin doesn't exactly know what else to do. he doesn't want to leave him alone. he basically has to wait around until he passes out.]

I guess I could take you somewhere else, but there isn't much else besides town... And dragging you through all that sounds like more trouble than it'd be worth.

[he might have been talking more to himself, with that last bit.]
birdsbirdsbirds: (♥ what is personal space anyway)

[personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds 2012-02-03 07:34 am (UTC)(link)
[that still bothers him. he wants to reach out for Coil's hand and get him to settle, or help ward off... whatever it is that's still following him around. even if it's really just night-sickness, he would love to do... something.

but he can't see it. he could if he was... hm.]


Hey, Coil. [he brushes the kid's bangs out of his face for a moment.] Those wards you've got up... do they keep magic and auras inside the room?
birdsbirdsbirds: (♥ sometimes he's not awful)

[personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds 2012-02-03 08:22 am (UTC)(link)
[that look... he lets the other's bangs fall back in his face, looking a little sympathetic.]

Hey, I would have found them anyway. I'm kind of sensitive to that stuff.
birdsbirdsbirds: (♦ sleeps like a dead seal)

[personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds 2012-02-05 07:29 am (UTC)(link)
[usually he can read him pretty well, but this time? he's just not sure what Coil is looking for.]

I'm not gonna... tell, or anything. If that's what you're worried about.
birdsbirdsbirds: (♦ general all purpose concern)

[personal profile] birdsbirdsbirds 2012-02-08 06:22 am (UTC)(link)
All right. Good...

[he's hoping that's what he's nodding about, anyway. he's still debating whether or not he'd want to show him--only two people know, after all, and it might freak him out more than he already is...

in debating, he instinctively reaches over to wrap his arm around Coil's shoulder. maybe another moment of attention with the cloth. with this, it's effectively a waiting game.]